Isn't it funny that when your world seems to be going exactly how you want it to go and makes you feel exactly the way you want to feel something unexpected always gets blown our way knocking us off of our hiatus and telling us NO!
I don't think its that funny.
Recently, I've attempted to transfer universities and I got lucky and was accepted to all the schools I wanted to go to and had so many doors beginning to be opened for me. I received good amounts of money from them and I felt accomplished. Not only that but my school work at the university I am attending I had all my work completed and done and everything was great. No stress. No worries.
Boy, did I have it wrong.
My grandpa past away the morning after I found out I'd been accepted to my #1 school. My world crumbled to pieces right before my eyes. How could it be that life can be so joyous and magnificent one day and completely mournful and sad the next. I never got the chance to tell him what I'd done. I never got to see his lips turn up and his eyes glisten because he was proud of me. Never got to hear him say the words I longed to hear which were "You will do great things one day". Something he always told me when I successfully did something. He was my motivation.
And now....now I am broken. And I don't have the fight to want to go to a different school or pursue something bigger than me. Without him around I feel as though I have lost a part of me that always pushed me to be more and do more and not think twice about what the outcome would be because no matter what happened I had strived to do it and that's what was important and what I would carry with me for therest of my life.
Now, that's all gone. And so is he.
Life is funny that way, bringing up one and tearing you down the next.
My advice: Role with the punches, even if it takes you awhile just role with them.
Sincerely,
Nina <3
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